Beta #3

422!!!!!!! I can’t believe it! I was hoping for double, which would have been 208, this is more than double! I don’t think I will feel out of the woods til I actually hold the baby, but this is a good start!  That’s a doubling time of 31.5 hours. Thank You GOD!

Hanging in there..

So, of coarse the waiting is driving me crazy. I go through phases of doom and gloom and then phases of hope. As far as physical symptoms.. I have no spotting, cramping or anything like that, which is good. My breasts started to hurt a little last night.. when I laid on my stomach they hurt in certain places. I am hoping that is a good sign.  Today I am 4 weeks and 6 days.

Pray, Pray, Pray

Glorious St. Anthony, you were blessed to hold the Infant Jesus in your arms. I come to you now on behalf of Stacy who pleads for the health and safety of the child that God has graced her to conceive.

St. Anthony, guard this life God has created, and the mother God has chosen for this child. Let your gentle hand, like that of a skilled physician, aid in her delivery so that this baby will know good health and lasting happiness.

May her child be favored with the grace of holy baptism, and grow to love our Lord Jesus Christ above all else in this world. Amen.

2nd beta

I went in today fully expected my beta to be lower or the same.. I have grieved this child the last 2 days. Everyone I know is praying for me. My beta went up to 51. That is a doubling time of 52 hours and a 89% increase. They say anything above 60% is normal. It is still low for where it should be at this many days.. but it is a step in the right direction.

Retest

So, I decided to retest this morning.. so as not to have my hopes up toooo high. The second test was a fuzz darker than the last. I also took an internet cheapie test and it was so faint I would not have thought it a BFP if it were the first test I took. You can barely see it.. and it would not photo so I didn’t even try. So, here’s a photo comparing the 2 frer’s. I hope this isn’t a chemical and I have good numbers.

Win or Lose

Tomorrow is my beta. I haven’t tested again, I am too damn scared! I still have a fear that it was a cruel cosmic joke. I will know soon enough. I will say, I have incredible heartburn and every now and then a faint wave of nausea. Too tired also… but that’s nothing new. I am afraid it is all in my head….

Is this for real?

Holy Shit

Has God finally taken mercy on my tortured soul? My tortured womb? I sure hope so… I got this today… around 10am… not my first pee of the day. It is very faint.. but it is there and came up right away. God, PLEASE let this be real and not a faulty test, alien pee, eye malfunction, leftover HCG, or anything else….

Third time is a charm?

Out of 22 lovely oocytes, all 22 fertilized!! What are the odds?! That is crazy unheard of! They froze 12 on day 2, and grew 10 out to blast. I had 2 blast transferred today and am already sick of lying around especially since I did that all week cause I felt like I truck ran over me. So, when I went in, 6 were still at the morula stage, 1 was fragmented, whatever that means, and one was still at 8 cells. I hope those six  (or all 8!) make it to blast. At that point, they will be frozen. So, I am guessing we should have at least 2 more transfers with the leftovers. My beta is June 22nd.

“He settles the barren woman in her home as the happy mother of children. Praise the Lord” Psalm 113:9

They got 22!

Hallelujah! I can’t believe it. My prayers worked. I was so nervous and never expected this many! I will find out tomorrow how many fertilized etc. Hoping for a 5 day transfer on Saturday. This is it. It has to be. I am super sore… drinking lots of gatorade and having protein shakes. Which are quite yummy by the way. I could get used to them 🙂 I had to ask the nurse like 5 times.. how many? 22? How many? Did you say 22? Guess the drugs were good.