Beta #3

422!!!!!!! I can’t believe it! I was hoping for double, which would have been 208, this is more than double! I don’t think I will feel out of the woods til I actually hold the baby, but this is a good start!  That’s a doubling time of 31.5 hours. Thank You GOD!

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Hanging in there..

So, of coarse the waiting is driving me crazy. I go through phases of doom and gloom and then phases of hope. As far as physical symptoms.. I have no spotting, cramping or anything like that, which is good. My breasts started to hurt a little last night.. when I laid on my stomach they hurt in certain places. I am hoping that is a good sign.  Today I am 4 weeks and 6 days.

Pray, Pray, Pray

Glorious St. Anthony, you were blessed to hold the Infant Jesus in your arms. I come to you now on behalf of Stacy who pleads for the health and safety of the child that God has graced her to conceive.

St. Anthony, guard this life God has created, and the mother God has chosen for this child. Let your gentle hand, like that of a skilled physician, aid in her delivery so that this baby will know good health and lasting happiness.

May her child be favored with the grace of holy baptism, and grow to love our Lord Jesus Christ above all else in this world. Amen.

2nd beta

I went in today fully expected my beta to be lower or the same.. I have grieved this child the last 2 days. Everyone I know is praying for me. My beta went up to 51. That is a doubling time of 52 hours and a 89% increase. They say anything above 60% is normal. It is still low for where it should be at this many days.. but it is a step in the right direction.

Retest

So, I decided to retest this morning.. so as not to have my hopes up toooo high. The second test was a fuzz darker than the last. I also took an internet cheapie test and it was so faint I would not have thought it a BFP if it were the first test I took. You can barely see it.. and it would not photo so I didn’t even try. So, here’s a photo comparing the 2 frer’s. I hope this isn’t a chemical and I have good numbers.

Win or Lose

Tomorrow is my beta. I haven’t tested again, I am too damn scared! I still have a fear that it was a cruel cosmic joke. I will know soon enough. I will say, I have incredible heartburn and every now and then a faint wave of nausea. Too tired also… but that’s nothing new. I am afraid it is all in my head….